Daily you look at ’em
And wonder about ’em
What will they be
How will they turn out?
You strive to teach ’em
You endevour to mould ’em
In your own way you shield ’em
Cos all you can do is love ’em
Your children learn by modeling you
Your behavior teach ’em more than your words
So show em, don’t just tell em
It’s the only way to real and lasting impact
If you were God for a day
Would you make a world like this?
One where everything needs everything else
One where we all enter innocent
… bloody
… blameless and clueless
Would you create man …
Forty weeks in the making
Nine months undertaking
Would you give man so much freedom?
Bestow him with free will
Free to the extent that he can choose …
To believe in you
… Or not
Free enough to reject you
… to your face
Free to a point of being selfish
… man eat man society
Where the rich gets richer
And the poor man has no one to feed him
Would you make rivers flow
… from mountains downstream
Only for man to polute them
Deposit industrial waste in your streams
Then place the blame on you
… for cholera, typhoid, dysentery
for all his poor choices
… the consequences
If you were God for a day
Would the devil freely roam?
Would hurricanes be
How about earthquakes
… landslides
… farmine
… deseases
… drought
Would you give you own life
For an evil generation?
See your own creation crucify you like a crook
Like a sheep watch ’em lead you to the slaughter
Despice you, reject you, esteem you not?
Would you be wounded for their crimes?
Crushed for their iniquities
Labelled a man of sorrows
Would you call them your children?
Friends maybe?
Branches stemming from you?
Justified and redeemed?
More than conquerors?
Heirs with you son?
Would you call them saints?
A new creation?
Holy and blameless?
If you were God for a day
Would you save mankind?
Though I’m only a human
In my days I’ve known pain
Ever since this rain began
I tend experience fights in my brain
But I know that God’s got a plan
Though I smile, I grin, and I maintain
I admit, some of the fear remain
I go thru stuff that’s hard to explain
At times I run but I can’t escape the rain
But I’m convinced, its not in vain
Cos God’s got a plan
I might walk on streets that are mean
I might carry the weight of a clan
Might be lost in a synthetic ocean
Might have cried to exhaustion
Might even be running from the bogeyman
All in all I know, God’s got a plan
@muchendujnr
I find it healthy to convesate with myself…
Through it I deal with voices in my head
From the choices that I dreaded choosing
To being able to see my life flash Infront of my eyes
I see how my lust for cars, cash, and worldly stuff has had me suffer and my scars run deep ..
And the system’s still applying more pressure
At quiet times I contemplated giving up
Even toyed around with suicidal thoughts
But I’ve got mad dreams, kids and bills
So I run to what I know
My pen is my ecstasy
So I scribble my fears on plain white sheets
I wipe my tattooed tears on white napkins
I drown it all the best way I know how to
With words on my pad I puff it all away
I remind myself that I owe it to mysey to never make the same mistakes
Moving with a change of pace,
In my head I’m a fighter,
My words sparks up the lighter
My soul is a fluid
My load is getting lighter
Another peaceful moment is lost,
But I still need to be straight
I say to myself, son, take one deep breath,
Down on one knee,
I whisper a simple prayer to my God
Thanks for this far
Please forgive me for my life of sin
I beg for Thy forgiveness
I’m back on the right track, I’m finally found!
@muchendujnr
Most times in my quest to know you
I close my eyes and get lost in my imagination
I imagine myself a coroner
With my lifeless body lying on the operating table
I cut it into pieces
Every part
Every organ
I dissect it, take a step back and observe
In it I see it all
My glitter
My ribbons
The awesome magic behind it
Who would do it?
Who is this that cares for someone like me that much to do this
Take his time and put all these pieces together?
In perfect harmony
The thoughts, the feelings, the memories
The pain, the gain, the strain
The secrets, regrets, the present the prospects
And I’m surprised you know it all and you love me all the same
Cos if they knew half of it
They wouldn’t feel the same
So I take a step back and process it all …
With all this information
Found in me
That nobody else tries to find
Cos nobody else cares to look for it
It’s dawns on me that
Figuring out who you are
Is probably the only thing that nobody else can do for me but me
Started off like a lil town marriage
Lovely wife and life, then baby carriers
Innocent words were heard
Promise me you’re gon stack
Promise me you’ll gon ball
Promise me you’ll invest
Three fourths of it all, you ask why?
So that the kids can have some cheese, Wealth was the word!
…
Now they’re stars and all,
Success of course
High like a Hollywood cola
He’s not a drug dealer
She ain’t a junkie neither
Who would have thought that this would either
…
I’d sit back and watch em, what I lucky pair!
They were friends, they had it all and I thought no-one could stop em
He was her Johnny Depp, she was his Janis Joplin
Yet, the cutter version
Not picture perfect yet worth the picture
…
I don’t know what time it is bt it’s halftime
Half the money, half the cars, half the riches, Half the time with em kids!
Not forgetting it’s really half!
It’s half the soul and half the heart that’s being left behind!
Journalists tryna burn em, fans all turned up against em
Attorneys all taking a turn at em and critics just wanna crucify em
It was good while it lasted, But
It all ends in Nollywood divorce!
@muchendujnr
If this is truly a dream
Then I don’t wanna wake up
Cos if I’m ever free
It’s only in my dreams
Only there I’m I poor bastard
That has so much to offer
It’s only there that this pain stops
And I get to really live
It’s only there that
I get to meet my private self
I get to see the child inside me dance
I get to ride wild horses
So let me and my dreams be,
Cos it does me more good than I’d ever say
It helps me live
It makes my broken heart whole
It seals my wounds
It covers all my scars
But I never forget
This is just but a temporary loan
@muchendujnr
My favorite poem is the one I wrote when I was sad
Cos honestly I was blunt with the truth since I was mad
With you, with me, with us and our relationship, that’s a wrap
Cos it’s only you that has a map
A map that you barely ever let me peep
So I never get to seek a leak
So one step after the other, blindfolded I walk
Cos I yearn for that feeling, I wanna belong
So I weep, what does one do when God is silent?
I pray that your silence won’t be long
Cos whenever we talk
I fear that all I do is sulk and it’s sucks
Cos all the hurt I forced underneath is starting it’s shows …
I know that every relationship has its flaws
It’s ups and downs, dips and douse
N ours ain’t unlikely, we’re poles apart
I can’t take it anymore! Dear God it’s hurts
I know the way through, is the only way out
And you keep asking that I trust you so I must
But I’m strugglin’, I’m crumblin’
I lost my faith again
I did what most boys do thinkin’ its cool
Listened to the lies and rumors of a fool
So now I’m in too deep
Hanging on to relationships that don work
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean to be disrespectful, some of them were special
But you can never make yourself wanted when you’re unwanted
And it’s sad when you rely on someonelse’s touch to make you feel complete
So it’s clear to my head I can no longer stay here
You say you know I ain’t perfect yet you’d like me to try
But it’s just too painful, where’re you at?
Again I wonder, what does one do when God is silent?
@muchendujnr
I
At times I wonder if you’re real?
Or should I look for somebody else?
Are you really who you say you are?
That you’re able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above and beyond ..
Much more than I can ask?
Much more than I can think?
II
If you are, I wonder if it’s true …
That you know where I am?
That you actually see it
That you see every step I take?
How about the ones I took backwards?
Or the tears that we muffled by this pillow?
III
If it’s really true then I’ll let you in on my truth
I fear that you’re mad at me
Cos you’ve broken me on every side that I go
If you’re not how comes …
That it’s only trouble that finds me?
When I hoped for good, evil came
When I waited for light, all was dark
IV
But then again
Though you slay me,
You still remain my hope
Though I’m flat on my back
It allows me to reflect and look up to you
And I’m able to see you for myself
And I’m reminded that it all works together for my good!
@muchendujnr
I am capable of anything and everything
I only need to put my mind to it
My days are full of daydreams and optimism
I desire to see things adjust in a health manner
I try to keep up but it ain’t painless
I hope that he sees that I am trying
muchendu
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