Now, did you read the news today?
Did they say that danger has gone away?
Cos from where I stand the fire is still lit
And it’s burning up into the night!
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All my thousands dreams
Are haunted by a million screams
Fading into a billion streams!
Maybe I just have too many problems!
….
This is the time
I’m looking up to you for the future
Oh Christ, where are you now?
Cos everything’s gone wrong somehow!
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I’m so confused
What should I do?
I can’t think of anything
Anything except you
I need you!
Category Archives: inspiration
I had a dream
In my dreams life’s a book
Plain on the outside
Blank on the inside
With pages yet to be scripted
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Our life’s the headline
So as we walk in the sunshine
Each one of lays out their storyline
Daily we write and lay out an outline
Our choices marks our lifeline
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Every day’s like a new page
With it we set a new stage
Some can’t let go of their past age
Others worry about the future age
Mainly missing the present age
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It’s all about grabbing each opportunity
So to fill this lil gap I saw in my society
I’m putting in my two cents of sobriety
Living my life like a pen from sun city
Shinning now cos soon this sun will set
Writing my story through songs and poems
I seek no political power
Just lyrical power
Armed with a mission is to inspire
To right some wrongs is what I desire
Do up until the last page of this column
When I’ll have to put this pen down
Learning
An old man once said that life is short
From then I chose to pay more attention
So I set myself on a quest to learn
I’m learning that I have so much to learn
I’m loud where I should be quiet
And quiet when I should be loud
I’m my own quantum of solace
So I’m learning how to whisper
When I have nothing to say
I’d rather just stay quiet
Maybe that’s what it means being an introvert
So I’m learning to be myself
I have a problem with trust
So how can I trust you?
When I don’t trust me!
So I’m learning to trust in God
God for a day
If you were God for a day
Would you make a world like this?
One where everything needs everything else
One where we all enter innocent
… bloody
… blameless and clueless
Would you create man …
Forty weeks in the making
Nine months undertaking
Would you give man so much freedom?
Bestow him with free will
Free to the extent that he can choose …
To believe in you
… Or not
Free enough to reject you
… to your face
Free to a point of being selfish
… man eat man society
Where the rich gets richer
And the poor man has no one to feed him
Would you make rivers flow
… from mountains downstream
Only for man to polute them
Deposit industrial waste in your streams
Then place the blame on you
… for cholera, typhoid, dysentery
for all his poor choices
… the consequences
If you were God for a day
Would the devil freely roam?
Would hurricanes be
How about earthquakes
… landslides
… farmine
… deseases
… drought
Would you give you own life
For an evil generation?
See your own creation crucify you like a crook
Like a sheep watch ’em lead you to the slaughter
Despice you, reject you, esteem you not?
Would you be wounded for their crimes?
Crushed for their iniquities
Labelled a man of sorrows
Would you call them your children?
Friends maybe?
Branches stemming from you?
Justified and redeemed?
More than conquerors?
Heirs with you son?
Would you call them saints?
A new creation?
Holy and blameless?
If you were God for a day
Would you save mankind?
Self talk
I find it healthy to convesate with myself…
Through it I deal with voices in my head
From the choices that I dreaded choosing
To being able to see my life flash Infront of my eyes
I see how my lust for cars, cash, and worldly stuff has had me suffer and my scars run deep ..
And the system’s still applying more pressure
At quiet times I contemplated giving up
Even toyed around with suicidal thoughts
But I’ve got mad dreams, kids and bills
So I run to what I know
My pen is my ecstasy
So I scribble my fears on plain white sheets
I wipe my tattooed tears on white napkins
I drown it all the best way I know how to
With words on my pad I puff it all away
I remind myself that I owe it to mysey to never make the same mistakes
Moving with a change of pace,
In my head I’m a fighter,
My words sparks up the lighter
My soul is a fluid
My load is getting lighter
Another peaceful moment is lost,
But I still need to be straight
I say to myself, son, take one deep breath,
Down on one knee,
I whisper a simple prayer to my God
Thanks for this far
Please forgive me for my life of sin
I beg for Thy forgiveness
I’m back on the right track, I’m finally found!
@muchendujnr
Dream
If this is truly a dream
Then I don’t wanna wake up
Cos if I’m ever free
It’s only in my dreams
Only there I’m I poor bastard
That has so much to offer
It’s only there that this pain stops
And I get to really live
It’s only there that
I get to meet my private self
I get to see the child inside me dance
I get to ride wild horses
So let me and my dreams be,
Cos it does me more good than I’d ever say
It helps me live
It makes my broken heart whole
It seals my wounds
It covers all my scars
But I never forget
This is just but a temporary loan
@muchendujnr
A woman
I
At times I wonder if you’re real?
Or should I look for somebody else?
Are you really who you say you are?
That you’re able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above and beyond ..
Much more than I can ask?
Much more than I can think?
II
If you are, I wonder if it’s true …
That you know where I am?
That you actually see it
That you see every step I take?
How about the ones I took backwards?
Or the tears that we muffled by this pillow?
III
If it’s really true then I’ll let you in on my truth
I fear that you’re mad at me
Cos you’ve broken me on every side that I go
If you’re not how comes …
That it’s only trouble that finds me?
When I hoped for good, evil came
When I waited for light, all was dark
IV
But then again
Though you slay me,
You still remain my hope
Though I’m flat on my back
It allows me to reflect and look up to you
And I’m able to see you for myself
And I’m reminded that it all works together for my good!
@muchendujnr
I’m trying
I am capable of anything and everything
I only need to put my mind to it
My days are full of daydreams and optimism
I desire to see things adjust in a health manner
I try to keep up but it ain’t painless
I hope that he sees that I am trying
muchendu
This is for all the times …
I let you push me around
I let you keep me down
I listened to you lies
I watched as you walked all over me
I made excuses for your conduct
I was afraid to make a single sound
I cried myself to sleep
I failed to clean out my closet
I was terrified to let you down
I broke my neck to give you perfectness
I wasted over half my life pleasing you
This is for all the times …
You said I’ll never make it
You said that I’ll never amount to anything
You told me to keep my mouth shut
You had my back up against the wall
You fed my fears and let them control me
You filled my stomach with butterflies
You put your hands on me
You stripped me of all confidence
You gave me nightmares
You wrote a list of those who matter but left me
Here I am and I will not run
Everything I was afraid to say I’m not afraid to say no more
Though my faith is riding on a string
I know it’s not too late for me to start over
The rage is gone and your lights are out
I’ve made a tight rope out of twine
Funny thing though, I don’t hate you
My shoulders no longer carry your weight
I’ve forgiven you
But I did it for me!
@scmuchendu