When I set to write this, the idea was to complain
But something changed. Allow me to explain
I was going to ask you to take away the rain
But then I observed that I have always best learned through pain
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I was going to say that it appears that my hard earned money is just for paying my bills
Then I observed that you have blessed me with endless skills
As a result I’m able to recompense my bills
And my family eats and dines to their fill
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I was going to whine that nonbelievers seems to have it all
The monies, the bunnies, the honeys; name it all
Then I remembered that I am an alien
I can’t feel at home when everything around me is foreign
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I was going to say that I’m giving up
That my strength is gone and I’ve lost all hope
But then I remembered that I’m not the only one
I’m not on my own and I’m never alone
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I was going to tell you that I have no reason to hold on
Then I remembered on the cross, it was for me that you held on
If you didn’t do it I wouldn’t have anyone to look up on
There wouldn’t be hope; there would be no life, I would be empty and alone
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I was going to say that I have been giving my finest
Yet I see no fruits for my hard sweat
Then I learned that all things work together for my own good
The good, the bad, the ugly and the open-ended
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I was going to ask that you take my life
That you erase it all, my name, my existence and my strife
Then I felt the love of the people that you have brought into my life
My daughter, my unborn child and my beautiful wife
Right there and then my mourning turned into joy
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The idea was to mourn but now I rejoice
The goal was to complain; now I celebrate
The ambition was to protest; but now I express joy
The end result turned to be more beautiful that I had imagined
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Believe me now I know, through this hurt and rain
I am made strong and in the end I gain
I ask do not take it away, let the pain remain
Through it let me have my domain
Only give me the grace I need to stay alive and survive
Until in your gates I arrive
muchendu